If slow wins the race, why am I so frustrated.

I AM NOT USED TO GOING SLOW. I like to drive fast. I do not see the point in walking if I can run. I prefer to multitask, so I get done quicker. I have learned that driving fast leads to speed tickets & thankfully I have given that up. I like money more & prefer saving then spending on traffic fines. At work, I am used to being a super-human...I am accepting that I can relax & go slow. This I am okay with.

I am not okay with NOT running. I have not ran since I first learned about the fluid on my lung & when I was cleared to run (i.e. we knew this was not pneumonia) my lung hurt too much to run. I hate walking. I have to figure out how to accept that this is a change, maybe not permanent, but at least for 2 months. I also cannot do plyometrics (i.e. burpees, squat jumps, box jumps). I feel weak. I cough like a smoker when I try to do these things & I feel old. Not 29 old, but 79 old. 

How can I accept this? Someone told me to try walking, so I did. I walked to my gym (which is a first) as it is only 1mi away. I realized in that walk that I must be a lazy bum for not walking there for the past 2yrs. I not only got in some cardio, I got to listen to music and enjoyed the weather. I wanted to run, because I did get bored. I just need to find something positive in walking and accept what I can versus cannot do. I can lift weights & walk. So I have been demoted to normal. No longer super exercise chic running 5+ miles and lifting weights with plyometrics. I walk like a normal person. Ugh. Whatever. This will have to do.